"The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new." - Socrates
I think change can be intimidating. I think it often feels more secure to cling onto the old, even when it is no longer working or it is no longer serving our needs, than to step into the future without any sense direction. Even when we know our new beginning will offer us more opportunity to thrive, we would rather avoid the painful ending. This is, perhaps, one of the reasons I am most grateful for yoga. I have learned that you must stop fighting and truly let go (of the body, of fear, of expectations), and that's when the magic happens.
Have you ever left a yoga class and thought "wtf just happened?" You feel like you walked into class just fine, but throughout the practice you were completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged on your mat. Usually, this is a bit intimidating or maybe even embarrassing. You think, here I am crying in savasana, again. But there's also this joyous release, this overwhelming realization that you are taking all the right steps to come back to yourself. However, it is small. Some days, the fear of change is going to win and leave you feeling conflicted and burnt out, but hang in there! This is the beginning of your self discovery, just breathe and let yourself take a journey.
This was a concept I understood rather quickly in my yoga practice. I had been a longtime sufferer of depression and anxiety and even though the silence on the mat was intimidating, the benefits were instant for me. However, taking this acceptance of change off the mat has not been so easy. In the last couple years of my life, I have experience radical self improvement which has been amazing and challenging in all of the right ways. However, I have also experienced the hopelessness of a failed marriage and the forced change that surrounds it. It is scary as hell and I have no clue where my life is heading. However, my yoga experience has been a serious life changer.
"Change is a challenge, which both excites the soul, and frightens the body" - AML
Do you remember the first time you lifted your toes off the floor for Warrior III (or crow pose or whatever pose intimidates you) and you were absolutely terrified? But then, you don't actually fall on your face and make a fool of yourself and no one is laughing at you? There's a little rush through the body and a quiet grin across your face because you, my friend, just kicked some yoga ass! And the next time you try something new, maybe the fear isn't as strong, maybe you slowly start to trust your body, right? I mean, the fear never completely goes away, but you can look forward to that HELL YES feeling that comes when you try it anyway.
I am learning it works this way with life too. Change is always scary, but staying where we are will never let us thrive. Growth is unavoidable, especially as a yogi, so I encourage you to breathe and let the magic happen. It is always worth it.
Cheers to the new Taryn Raine Yoga Blog and letting go of the old :)
Namaste - Taryn Raine xoxo